Showing posts with label Africa. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Africa. Show all posts

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

What about me?

It has been one of those weeks, well months, okay years, where it seems like everyone is being acknowledged for their hard work and life changing news: study abroad, interviews, awards, and engagements (lots of engagements).

Meanwhile, I'm just over here like "what about me"?
Don't get me wrong, I am happy for everyone. Especially since most of these accomplishments are for my family members and friends. However some of my disdain is from the fact that I feel neglected. It feels like I'm doing the exact same things (minus the getting ready to marry thing) and haven't been acknowledged. I've been working hard, getting good grades, and all that jazz. A little recognition would hurt would it? It feels like I'm getting bitter.

Man I hate that word: bitter. Ever since one of my managers refer to me as being bitter I vowed to never let anyone call me that again. It sounds like a term someone would say to someone who's old and hates life. And I'm not old, I'm still in my 20's! And here I am, referring to myself as bitter, which needs to stop.

Maybe the reason why I want to stay so involved is because I want to be noticed? Which isn't a bad thing, but that can't be the only reason right? Sometimes service and hard work in itself is rewarding enough. Looking back on last year, I've done a lot of things I should be grateful for that have put me in the spotlight, such as being able to travel to Africa. A lot has happened in my life already, and I don't need some title or award to prove my worth. 

I sometimes forget that I'm not in control of my life; God is. I need to be grateful for what He has given me, and what He has allowed me to do.  He must have a greater plan for me, something that can't be measured by a piece of paper or a new title to add to my resume.

Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. ~ Philippians 4: 11-12



Wednesday, January 16, 2013

My Name is not Muzungu

A new year means new beginnings, or at least that's how it usually starts out. I promised to start writing on my blog again, and about 4 weeks after that promise I only wrote 2 posts.

Now I could make up excuses like "oh I didn't have Internet over Christmas Break" or "I don't have the time with 18 credits". However, excuses only mean you're not taking responsibility for your actions. And now that I will be blogging for my internship (by the way, getting paid to be on Social Media is the best thing ever!), I should get back into the swing of things.

It has been nearly a year since I found out I was going to study abroad in Malawi, Africa last May. It's hard to believe how much has change since then. My new found love for Africa has inspired me to find ways to incorporate it into my everyday life. It didn't work out in my favor when I had to make a speech last semester about my time in Malawi and decided to wear African clothing, only to have many people stare at me like I was a lunatic. Which is why I'm relying on my social media outlets, and other subtle ways, to help portray my love and interest in the land so many people assume is full of only poverty.

The first step was to change the URL for my blog. While I will always love the original name "Shutter-Style", it was time for a change. My blog's new name is "My Name Not Muzungu".

What is a Muzungu? Muzungu is a term for foreign person, used mostly in the southern, central, and eastern regions of Africa (like Malawi!). It can mean "aimless wanderer" or "someone who roams around aimlessly". However, most natives of Africa associate the term with the meaning "white person" or "European". When I was in Africa, this was basically my name. It's important to note that this term is not offensive. Now if you called someone out based on their ethnicity or race in the United States, you would more than likely get slapped....

There are not very many white people in Malawi (no surprise), and many of the natives have never seen a white person other than through a picture or on TV, especially someone as white as I am. It was difficult to convince them that I had a name, a personality, and a life outside of Africa. It was also hard to adjust being in Africa and having everyone stare at you, staring because of your skin color, your accent, and your lifestyle.

The more I thought about being the "muzungu", the more I realized I was facing this problem before I went to Africa. I don't mean being singled out by my race, but the concept of trying to portray myself as not just a typical college student, as "Kalchik's little sister", or that girl in class that doesn't talk as much. I've been trying to find ways to distinguish myself from the rest of the world as an individual. That is what got me interested in Social Media, because I can describe myself on my own terms through the "inner voice" of my head. I don't want to be remembered as someone who blends into society, or gets stereotyped with other people who are similar to me; I want to stand out and make a name for myself.

Monday, December 17, 2012

The blog is back!

Man, it's been a long time since I've been on here.

When I started this blog about a year ago , it was because I was going to travel abroad to Malawi, Africa (which I just realized that today is the one-year anniversary of when I received my acceptance letter!). I had so many different emotions and I needed to keep track of them! It definitely helped that my best friend was going on the trip with me, as well as my brother's news about moving to California that helped my parents not be as worried. I wanted to write down everything that happened to me before, during, and after my trip.
After I left Africa and told my story, it felt like this blog didn't have a purpose. I felt lost, confused, and had no idea why I was still writing.

This time, I'm not so sure why I'm re-starting. Part of me missed blogging and expressing myself in ways I wasn't use to (such as writing down my feelings and such). Another part of me is interested in developing my skills as a writer, especially since I will be working in Marketing or Advertising where there will be writing.

Now, back to the one-year anniversary thing.

Originally when I applied to Africa, I had no idea what made me want to go. Maybe it was my desire to study abroad (and be able to graduate on time). Maybe it was my need for adventure. Or maybe it was a sign that showed me how big the world really is. I mean, I went through 3 different continents to get there! I've stepped foot on nearly half of the world at this point. And my desire to see the world hasn't changed, in fact, it's gotten even bigger!

While I don't promise my posts will relate to Africa, or anything earth-shattering, I will promise to write on my blog for the sake of writing. Whatever is going on in my life, I will find a reason to write about it. This will not only help me develop as a writer, but also find a creative way to make my life sound more interesting and exciting.


Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Tionana

It's great being back in Grand Rapids! Although I'm still not completely settled into my new house, it's amazing how much progress I've made so far. Oh the things you can do when you don't have the Internet to distract you....

Saturday, July 21, 2012

The Malawi (and London) Swag Bag

I've been dying to post the souvenirs I got from Malawi and London for the longest time! The main reason I haven't is because I wanted these to be a surprise for those who were lucky enough to get these as gifts. Well wait no longer!

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Let's be Amish tonight

Day 11
05/16/12
*There is no post for Day 10, due to some controversial issues that went on during the day as well as some personal information that shouldn't have been online. I deleted that post from earlier today. I'm sorry if I offended anyone for what I posted and hopefully my future posts will not offend anyone.

The Orphan Pact

Day 9
05/14/12

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Can we visit Mozambique too?

Sorry for the delay in my posts, I just started work again and it's been crazy! But that's how it is where I work: I work during the holidays so you don't have to.....
Anyway, here's what happened on Friday!

Day 6
05/11/12

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Greetings from Kenya!

Hello everyone! Sorry it's been a while since I updated. Everything is great so far, I love Africa! I will be home tomorrow afternoon. Also, I will updating my blog a little differently when I get back. My next posts will be like journal entries for each day I was gone. Can't wait to share my adventure! :)

Sunday, May 6, 2012

It's Time for Africa!

In less than 12 hours, I will be going on a plane and hopping across the pond for the first time! I'm nervous, but excited. I don't know if I'll be able to update my Facebook/Twitter/blog while I'm in Africa, but honestly, if I don't, it'll be a nice break. I'm truly blessed to be one of the first students from AQ to go on this trip, and I can't wait to see what is out there.
Peace. Love. AQMalawi ♥

Thursday, May 3, 2012

The rest is still unwritten

It's so close to summer! Only one final left :)
What does my summer entail? Well, summer classes, working at Roman Wheel, and of course, Africa! However, the rest is still unwritten. I've been playing my Itunes on constant repeat until my finals are done. My recent addiction, Unwritten by Natasha Beddingfield.
 There are some particular lyrics that have been stuck in my head.
"Can't read my mind, i'm undefined"
"Today is when your book begins, the rest is still unwritten"
"We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way"
This really describes my life right now. I feel like I always have to be perfect, but no one is perfect. And God wouldn't want it any other way. Everyone is planning their lives, whether it's grad school, marriage, or who knows what. I have ideas, but I know better that life doesn't always turn out the way it should.
I feel like after going to Africa, it will be the major turning point in my life.Yeah, high school graduation was kind of a mildstone too, but honestly I didn't care, I was happy to get the heck out of there!
I can't believe I only have three days until I go to Africa. Many have been asking if I'll update my Facebook or my blog while I'm there. Unfortunately my Internet connection will be quite spotty, but when I get back, I plan to blog about each day as if it just happened. I can't wait to share my adventures in Africa and actually experience them for myself! Who knows what will happen, I mean the ending is unplanned :)

Monday, April 30, 2012

Keep calm and carry on (literally)

I'm sick of studying, so I'm focusing on my trip for next week. Now the fun part of traveling: packing. Not only will I be leaving for two weeks as opposed to usual study-abroad trips, but we have to deal with customs and all that fun stuff since we're leaving the country. I found this great website for packing:
 http://selectstudyabroad.com/2012/01/top-ten-tips-for-packing-luggage/
This has some really good tips, such as rolling your clothes to pack instead of folding them. I love the tips about how to protect liquids and keeping everything fresh. I'm just praying everything will be able to fit! Here's what I've been able to pack so far:
I know for sure one thing I absolutely need to pack: sunscreen. even though i was only outside for a few hours yesterday during our Soccer tournament, my face got fried (definitely not as bad as my friend Katie). I'm also a little worried about the mosquitos, I'm usually a food magnet for them during the summer. But I've been taking my malaria pills and I'm packing plenty of bug spray.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

This just got real

I decided to take a mini-break from blogging so I can sort out what exactly I need to do to be able to pass all my classes, which means studying, a ton.
But the days are dwindling down; tomorrow, I will be in the single digits until I leave for Africa! It's hard to believe. I just got my International Student ID yesterday, and my group is already packing.
I've been asked to provide an interview. Some of the questions are pretty basic, such as major, how are you involved on campus, how did you hear of the program, year, etc. But some questions I really need to think about: why did you want to study in Africa? What do you hope to bring back? What has Aquinas been like so far?
For the first question, I have two reasons:
The first: I've always wanted to study abroad, but with expenses and how close I am with my friends and family, I was positive I couldn't study abroad for a whole semester (especially with the fact that my majors wouldn't let me qualify). My cousin currently attends Westpoint and was able to study abroad last year in Egypt. Of course this was during the riots and he had to be relocated to Morocco.
The second reason: since both of my brothers have made their names known at Aquinas, I had to make my mark somehow. I'm part of the first group of students from Aquinas College traveling to Africa. My input is vital since I will be providing feedback for future trips. I want to make a difference (I know, I'm using Aquinas' slogan, but it totally applies!)
For the second question, I hope to bring back more of an understanding of developing countries. I'm not sure what to expect exactly, but I'm keeping an open mind (as well as a charged camera battery to document my trip!)
And the last question, well, I'll save that for another day. It's almost time for Africa!